So I decide today that I want a girlfriend, I see the vision of her living here with me while we both work and save up for the child that we're going to have.

And I wrote the goals of what this girl would be like.

Then I went online to PlentyOfFish.com to find her.

I came up with a bunch of freakin losers.

I remembered Noelle, out of nowhere.

Now, there's a woman.

She's divorced, has like 4 kids, lives in Texas.  She's a writer.  She's compassionate, and passionate.

Suddenly all I wanted was Noelle, so I called her.

We talked a while, but I did tell her, that I called her because I was looking for women online and remembered her and how wonderful she was and I would love to lie naked with her and make love to her.

She had done this neat thing, she'd sent me a CD of some music she liked.

You know, the modern version of flowers is someone making you a compilation CD.

Well she did that, and she made these special graphics on the CD holder, and on the CD itself, and then she included this really nice thick stationary describing the various songs.

Now who does that, these days?

So I was very moved by this, it made me feel special.

Anyways.  Here I am looking for women, and I can't find them, I can't find people who match me, but there was Noelle, and she keeps being in my dreams.

So I saw myself making love to Noelle, and I told her this, and she was cool with it, but she said we would crash and burn.

And I said, no we wouldn't, we would make love as much as we needed to, then we would be good friends, still, and I believe that.